Tuesday, September 26, 2006
all alone in the room in the early morning
its a nice time to be deep in thoughts
jus cant seem to fall aslp now
been real busy with ncc these past 3 weeks
out of the 3 weeks 13 days are taken by ncc
went for range, imt, orienteering comp etc
learn lots of things through these activities
also get to know lots of cadets from diff sch
though stuff like cleanin rifles is troublesome
but somehow i kinda enjoy it
mayb its my passion, my committment towards ncc
after i become a clt i realise a lot of things
i have seen the dark side of ncc
it doesnt seem as perfect as what i have thought
what i think of ncc as a cadet seems so naive
though im disappointed with it but i wont give up
this is the type of life i enjoy
though there are cock ups along the way
but the frenship & appreciation i get from some ppl is enough to get me going on
great buddies like syamil, kar how & woei luen
after being a clt for almost half a year
i still dont think i have fulfil my potential
i have been hiding behind too much
didnt really stand out but neither did i cock up
jus an average instructor
jus like what i used to be...an average cadet
never ever have i been real outstanding
my bro used to be a supernumery
he had received award for outstanding clt
he was an outstanding cadet too
he had left deep impression in many ppl
even till now some ppl still talk abt him
but it seems like his younger bro is so much lousier
neither am i a supernumery
neither am i an outstanding clt
im not sure whether i left deep impression in cadets mind
ppl always expect me to be outstanding due to my bro
they always think i shld have my bro's standard
but i seem such a total failure as compare to him
haiz...
getting a few weeks break from ncc
coz sec schs are having their end of year exam
jus a nice break in time for me
enough time for me to let my hair grow a little longer
at least for the fringe to touch eye brow
den the back a little longer jiu hao le
2 more days to go....
wishes.
~love & peace~
[my world]'2:28 AM;
